Down...

Recently, been really down... I think I am basically travelling from "angry mount" to "dissapointment valley", followed by "demotivated plains" and "emotionless highway". What happened to me!? Where is the bubbly, ever-so-positive, highly-strung and forward-looking GRACE?

Don't ask me what happened, 'cos my "volcano" might probably erupt yet once more.

I have been taught that "you are rewarded for what you sowed"; "treat others the way you want to be treated"; "life is unfair but you will get what is yours"; blah blah blah... Maybe I am just not in the right place at the right time, OR maybe it is just my luck, OR maybe this is my turn of "taking the blow" after life has been treating me with enough sugar and sweets...

NO, this is not the end of the world, NOR the end of my "personal-world", for the end of men is the beginning of GOD. Maybe this is God's speaking to me, turning me from my own strife and struggle to Him.
Yes, it must be!

"Lord, teach me to turn to You in each and every turn in my life. Grant me enough grace to sail through every storm and turmoil. Give me enough of Yourself so that my self can be reduced day by day. Humble me enough to learn that You are my God."

Till then, let me share this hymn I love to take refuge in my "low-time":

There are times in my life
When my heart is embittered.
There are questions unanswered,
Yet, You're drawing me
  To enter
  Into Your blessed sanctuary
  And turning my eyes heavenward,
  The questions of constant inquiry
  Are changed to these words,

"Whom do I have in heaven
But You, dear Jehovah.
My flesh and my heart
Constantly fail,
  But God's still
  The strength of my heart and my portion;
  To Him forever I'll draw near.
  I've made Jehovah my sweet refuge.
  So now throughout the years

Turn my view to see You,
How I need to see Jesus!!
Though I don't understand
The ways that You take;
  Lord, make me
  A babe and suckling always praising.
  Enjoying Your worth day by day.
  Let each experience constitute me
  So Your life I'll display
  In every way.

Source: http://www.hymnal.net/hymn.php/ns/287#ixzz1UhIyECoJ